I’ve got a Real problem
It never used to be this hard. I was exposed to it young and was addicted early. Upon coming to Christ I quit and it became easier to resist. Went for ages without it , but then it all just came back. Would go for a while without it, but then I was back in the same spot. I used to be able to resist for so much longer but now I’m getting so bad at resisting. I feel my relationship with the lord has dimmed so much but it isn’t just because of this. I still pray but I feel nothing. I’m in a void and I’m too ashamed to reach out. When will it end, I owe it to myself and my future but why can’t I fight for it. They say dust yourself off but yet I still feel unclean. Go forth and sin no more but I’ve got no one to hold me accountable. I strive on individuality but damn I’m helpless by myself. I’ve got every reason not to do it but I push past and satisfy myself, selfish I am and how impure that makes me feel. Lord help me. People help me. I need something…
You ain’t alone. I’ve struggled with it for a really long time. I too have strayed in my walk with faith. I have struggle with this addiction for years. This is the longest I have been free of porn for a long time, but you’re not alone and we all have our own battles. I struggle with same sex attraction and I pray to God for help and I really do feel like I’m in a void and he’s not there sometime, which I know isn’t true. I have felt better, but don’t be ashamed of yourself. I promise we are all out here trying our best and living with our own struggles :)