Post clarity

After my initial relapses I felt guilt. But after I commited to the mission for another go I didn’t feel the initial boost in my mood as I did once before. But it almost helped even more because of it. It has driven me to aspire to feel as I once did through way of abstinence. It felt like I had to work harder for it and it now means more than it did before. I’m confident in my ability to continue to abstain and strive for a better sense of reality and self. God bless you all.