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If you ever have children that invite their friends to sleep over . I would suggest you to have a pet or another friend/ or sibling to stay with them aswell . I was introduced to porn at an of 8 years old thought a sleep over .. I am now 19 and not one day passed without me picturing that exact scene in my mind . A friend of my mom’s children were about my age (both male) showed me porn picture and proceeded to show me irl what they learn from the video under the sheets. Till today I convince myself that maybe it may have been a dream , but then again I was 8 and never heard of what porn was . About 2 years later . I was in my primary school I saw a kid that was beside me watching porn on his school Chromebook . This day was like a key that just opened a miserable evil memory door to when I was 8 . Because my parents are very busy , when I got home this day. I was home alone . I went on my mom’s work computer and this day was the start of my porn addiction . The same day I got cough by my older brother but I made it in to a joke and we moved on. Or should I say he moved on . I wasn’t done , I wanted to watch evey single videos on there , evey category . every single uploaded videos . I didn’t felt any shame in doing it , matter of fact , I was so much more excited every day when I got home from school to watch more . At the age of 15 this is when I couldn’t stop , I felt like I couldn’t control myself anymore , if I missed the specific time I was supposed to be matching my mood would be ruined for the rest of the day. I’m petrified to tell anyone , It just seem like i can’t trust a soul anymore, i want to be isolated at random moment in the day at the same time I’m someone very social, and loves to have friends . I’ve been in 3 relationships so far and now that I look back i just feel like I never loved the partner I was with I just didn’t feel the pull as I usually did when I was watching. Today I just don’t feel any sort of attraction to the opposite sex . My mind is on repeat for what happened when I was 8. I hate those kids for what they did to me .Please parents be careful letting your children sleep in the same bed as their friends
Im sorry that happened to you brother. No kid deserves to go through that and Im sorry that your life was ripped away from you with out an ounce of remorse. All i can say is that I am so proud of you for making the step to wanting to get away from porn. Im 23 and looking back at how much of my life I’ve lost to porn, I wish I had the sense that you do at your age. Keep fighting man, It will 100% be worth it, I pray that you continue on your journey and that you continue to inspire others along the way.