The bear before the bull.

I was on a 114th day streak. I was doing really well. The streak ended around mid feb. I relapsed 4 times since. And yesterday was the 4th Time… this morning I have vouched to myself to come to a sense of accountability and come on here to admit what has been done. I tried having sex with my girl this morning and I couldn’t get it up. First thing in the morning and to sex. When usually I never had a problem. Today I have reset my streak. (Again) I will do what’s right for myself and for my partner as she doesn’t deserve for that to happen to her or me. Your environment is also a huge dealbreaker as well. Within that 114th streak. I was sticking to gym. No drink or drugs. On the grind making really good money and kept my head down. No porn no distraction no nothing. Now Instagram has been redownloaded, the porn has started again. I’m smoking weed again. And gym is at 1 day at most if not that. I have allowed myself to get distracted. Today I have not made a promise to myself or my girl that I won’t fap. That I have to harness that masculine energy into achieving greatness again. I didn’t grind that hard to let it go to shits again… today I will be better. So tomorrow I can set myself a new baseline.