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Brain required 100% still feel the same.

Day 93
by Mikayla 💟
1036 upvotes

It’s been 93 days since I started to get clean for the 100373747th time lol..and it’s been 93 days since :) I still feel the same though..I still feel tempted especially in my sleep a lot .. and this moving situation is making me depressed. I lived in that home since I was 6 and I’m 20 now. All my memories in that home and my family was forced to leave due to a misunderstanding and I’m in this new house but it will never feel like home.. I wanna take every second I feel like this to jsut open my laptop and binge-watch porn but I refuse… I’m 93 days clean but I still can’t feel normal human connection with my partner. Feels like I’m forcing it sometimes to make him happy knowing I’m not into it at all..and yeah it’s probably because I was so addicted to it since I was 10 years old and it’s gonna take longer than 93 days to feel normal again but I’m ready to take it all in…🤍

Comments (6)
You51d ago

I'm so glad you hit 93 days Mikayla! Thank you for the update on the moving situation, but I'm sorry you feel ddpressed. Honestly, thats apart of life, but Jesus will help you through it. It may take longer to recover then some, but please don't give up. Please don't fall into the trap again. I'm still praying for you!- Battle Buddy Logan

Dan🎱52d ago

There is this thing called pair bonding, if I remember correctly it takes women longer to recover this aspect of sexual intimacy. Men are typically better at subconsciously bonding with their partner than women are. I’d look it up so that you can fact check me, and so you can find out for yourself. It might take a bit longer for you, but stick it out you will be back to normal.

Diego52d ago

Might be time to start deconditioning yourself from demonizing masturbation and sex. Sex isn’t evil. Addiction is however. You will work through it, open yourself up more to talking about it with loved ones or a therapist. It’s all a balance. You got this.

Maurciano 52d ago

Temptations will always come no matter what. Just don’t crave those temptation even if that means deleting social media. Your 100 days may be different from someone else’s 100 days. It may take someone 93 days to recover and maybe 200+ days for u.

Nathanael52d ago

Praying for you Mikayla!! There’s a book called “With” by Skye Jethani that’s really good. It’s a perspective shift on relationship. It’s about relationship with God but the principles can apply to other relationships.

Su52d ago

It’s probably a lot different if you’re a woman, so it’s difficult for me to say what the issue might be. It might be more deeply rooted though. Have you given any thought to therapy? I don’t know you so idk if it would help but it might be worth a try.

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