Relapsed a few times / Going to unfuck myself

I’m tired of going through this journey and fucking up a few times. The worst part is everytime I relapse it is a more addictive feeling. I’ve been doing this for a few years and never managed to go past 90 days max like 40 days. I know how it feels to hit around 30 days and the confidence is REAL. Also the amazing feeling of not fapping and actually focusing on life and improvements. Like I mentioned the energy and confidence and self Esteem, etc is REALLY REAL. Now I need to really focus on my life and use this energy to better myself in all aspects of life. I’m going to stop this starting today and hit the 90 day mark and go way more beyond that! Through god everything is possible!!! 🙏🙏