“Siege”(day 6 journal)

It has been nearly a week since I decided to free myself. I lay anxious as my mind stands under a siege of temptation. Even my dreams are infected with lust. Why do I yearn for something so misplaced in nature. I am supposed to be special. And this addiction infects the common man. It is clear this path will let me define my own strength. Sometime soon I will need to accept the hardships of being a man in this world. I expect that will quiet the voices of weakness I so frequently hear.