I’m lost
Lately I been relapsing a lot, and as a Christian I take it even harder on myself because I know I’m letting God down and feeding my flesh. My lust for females is uncontrollable, when I see an attractive girl irl I can’t stop myself from having lustful thoughts. And the bad part is I usually have to take that lust out in the bathroom at home while thinking about that individual and watching porn. I feel like I’m in a cycle of relapsing and being lazy and not wanting to read the Bible and at this point I’m just lost.
Try to keep God in your mind always. If you think of God in everything you see, then there would hopefully be no room for lustful thoughts. And my advice for seeing attractive girls in public would be to instead of thinking “damn she bad” and getting horny, what I do is think “damn I want a girl like that” and it sorta pushes me to do better.