Starting again but stronger☦️

My first time going without porn I lasted only 8 days which I was proud of myself , then I lasted 2 days which I was pissed and mad at myself. Now I just jerked off but my eyes were open today because every time I lusted & prayed after for strength,forgiveness, & peace but I asked for these thing’s but never did one thing and can you guess what that was?…… Opening my Bible and acknowledging and accepting our Lord Jesus Christ into my everyday life and I was here making myself a clown in-front of my Father asking for thing’s but never actually acknowledging him and inviting him into my heart,mind,& soul. I was here basically talking to a wall , he did hear my cry’s but never did nothing about it cause he doesn’t know me but I did!, now I begging the lord to forgive for not acknowledging him and calling his name when I was in deep waters. But now I know he gave me his word & strength & power to beat this addiction once and for all. BE STRONG MY SOLDIERS , WE MIGHT HAVE LOST THE BATTLE BUT NOT THE WAR🫡