Not sure what to do…
I have this hard drive that over the years I’ve accumulated explicit pictures and videos. Also what is in this media is random photos and screenshots that I’ve taken as well. I’m home at my parents house and my stepdad is a photographer. I have some images I snapped of some beautiful scenery that I wanted to share with him. While looking for these photos, which are not properly labeled I came across the explicit images, holy shit my heart rate increased, the adrenaline started pumping and my brain felt the urge! I did my best to look past and started deleting them. Now I’m not sure if I failed and need to start my count over or what? I didn’t pleasure myself to the pictures, I didn’t open them up to view them, they were tiny thumbnails that I seen, the only thing I can say is just the reaction my body got and I didn’t get turned on. As soon as I found the images I went for a walk and a drive while listening to audio books. I feel fine now I’m just not sure if I relapsed… I do feel some shame but most of all proud of myself for not opening and gazing upon the pictures. Anywho some advice would be nice, thank you.
I think that in that instant you overcame a potential relapse. Instead of feeling shame I think you should feel proud for acting the way you did in that situation. You chose to delete them, you are a warrior in my book!