Can’t sleep

Suffering from insomnia, so I gotta type out this yearning to lust in the forum, instead of acting on it. I’ve felt the strong pull to watch porn the past 3 hours. I went to sleep around 10:30pm and woke up at 1am still can’t seem to go back to sleep. Usually Im a heavy sleeper but also my body is used to ejaculating at least twice a day with or without porn , sadly this used to be considered my sleep medicine in my teen years. I was in denial about its grip on me at the time. I’ll be moving into my new house in the next 4 or 5 hours. After splitting from my ex in late November I moved back in with my parents for the holidays so it will be nice to regain some independence. I’m 29 and this will be the first time I’ve gotten my own place that wasn’t with a partner. Since about 18 I’ve either lived with a gf or with my ex wife, so to be frank this is probably something I should have done a long time ago. I’ve never really seen myself as an independent person away from being one part of a couple. I guess this is my season of much needed personal growth, typing this journal entry is really helping me avoid temptation right now and these early am thoughts are flowing, glad I have an outlet for it. God bless you all! And just know before typing this I was so close to folding and now I’m reminded of the reason. I encourage anyone to journal their feelings and thoughts when those urges hit it’s the best reflection.