Going on a week-long solo trip

Last time I went out of the country, I was 3 months no fap, but admittedly had instances of watching softcore stuff along the way. When I was on that vacation, I ended up fantasizing and fetishizing the women there since being in a foreign land where no one knew me and I couldn’t speak the language added levels of promiscuity… it resulted in me falling back hard upon returning home and being in a cycle of relapses for 2-3 months. When I relapsed like this, I felt so far from God, felt so unworthy, and was filled with immense shame and guilt. They say His love knows no bounds, but my love for Him seemingly did if being in a new country allowed me to forsake Him. This vacation will be a test. We’re in the midst of and on the tail-end of this 90-day journey. I pray I stay focused on Him and not let international borders affect my love, commitment, and obedience towards Him.