New to the app

It’s currently 4:45 am rn and I gave in. Beating my meat and porn don’t have a complete control over my life I go to the gym 4-5 times a week I have a healthy diet I get out and get sunlight frequently and I only do it maybe once or rarely twice a week. But I want this part of my life gone. Every time I finish watching it instantly clicks in my head that this is fake and the girls on these apps I would never meet in real life. Within a relationship I want something real something meaningful but how can I say that when I run back to porn when I’m by myself. On a journey to officially leave this part of my life behind i am 18 years old and the longest I’ve ever gone without porn was 2 and a half weeks. Hoping this app keeps me solid and disciplined. We got this stay strong💪