Day 0
Today is the first day of downloading this app. I am a 19 year old living in Sweden. I finished High School last year and since then I have worked at a warehouse. Truth be told, I do not like my life. I feel like I have no real purpose and I feel like a loser almost all the time. I hate my job and want to study in university but my grades were to bad. I feel extremly lonely and I never feel ”good” except for when I masturbate to porn. My life is not all bad and I should be grateful to have a roof over my head, a job, etcetra. But the thing that bothers me is not all about how badly I think of my situation, is also that I know that I am capable of so much more. I know deep down, that I have so much potential to succeed in every area of life if I could get rid of this addicition. The problem is that it seems like I cant. My porn/masturbation addiction is holding me back and has held me back troughout my whole teenage period. I have wanted to quit since 2021 but have not lasted more than a week. Porn and masturbation has taken a larger tole in my life than you could ever imagine. It has given me severe social anxiety, concentration problems, communication problems, depression, low self esteem and confidence. These side effects has made it much harder for me to build relationships, do good in school, be more social, talk to girls and overall succeed in life. Porn and masturbation has literally controlled my life and frankly I do not know how to quit. I want to quit, I really do, But honestly it feels impossible. It feels like im in to deep to get dragged out. I not only believe, I know I that if I had quit back in 2021, my life would have looked completely different today. I would have probably been in uni right now, been much more social and happy. Maybe I would have even had a girlfriend. Even if the chances are slim I truly hope and pray that with the help of this app that I can quit once and for all. I am tired of feeling like this. I am tired of feeling like a total loser when I know I could be the opposite. I want to change.
Good day my brother! Firstly, I want to commend and congratulate you for coming on here and taking those first steps to quitting and bettering yourself and your life. May the Lord God reward and strengthen you. Secondly, I want you to be encouraged that we all will and are getting through this, and that your Decision to Change your life will be better. Lastly, I want to implore you to seek Jesus and allow Him to do the change in you. Ask Him for help and show you His Realness, and He will listen. Read your Bible and don’t beat yourself up. You are still really young and have such a prosperous future and chance ahead of you if you don’t relent. You got this, and God Bless you!