Day 30: I failed
I failed today. Today was Day 30. I didn’t watch pornography, but I still masturbated using my fantasies and thoughts. And I feel as if I had watched pornography. I feel drained. I feel kind of bad. Of course, there’s no point in driving myself crazy with guilt now. That won’t help me at all. But I just think that I would advise you not to masturbate either. I believe that the only way to truly break free from this addiction is to completely give up masturbation as much as possible. And not to fantasize and masturbate using your own thoughts. Because I don’t think the brain makes much of a distinction there. I have been consuming pornography for over a decade now, and I don’t believe that my brain has desexualized to the point where it recognizes a difference. That’s why, even though the app focuses on being porn-free, I would recommend giving up masturbation entirely. What do you guys think? What are your thoughts on this? Stay strong. It’s not worth it!
I agree, I think masturbation & ejaculating as a whole are my fight. my brain craves that cheap reward & that is what “rewiring” our brains is for. It may feel like you are starting over but 30 days is huge! you did it once- next stop 31 days! Thanks for sharing, i’m one day 7 and i was thinking about relapsing, so I came here. you reminded me that it’s now worth it. stay strong ❤️