24 days. Restart.

Relapsed 3 times today. I’ve been going so strong for the last 3 weeks. But today I got hit with the strongest urges I’ve felt in a long time. Listened to audio porn 3 times and looked at pictures of my girlfriend when I did it. But masturbation is a sin against one’s own body. And I lusted over my girlfriend. So that’s two sins. And I did it multiple times. Also, Realized why I felt these crazy urges out of nowhere. I’ve had more than a couple beers over this past week, ate like trash for the first time in a few weeks too, and I think my brain just got hotwired into giving into temptation. It’s just a little beer, it’s just another Big Mac, it’s just a few thoughts, it’s just an audio version, it’s just a few tugs, and then BOOM. Relapsed. Felt like crap afterwards. Per usual. BUT, I understand that these things happen, and it’s a war, not one battle. So I’m gonna keep going and keep my head up. Just wanted to say that it’s okay to fail. Failure is how you learn to improve yourself. Just remember your triggers. How even a little step off the path can lead you to relapsing eventually (if not at first). God bless you all, we’re all gonna make it one day, keep faith in Jesus and know he loves you no matter what.