Day 1… again
I’ve been at this since I was 16 years old, and now I’m 24. Writing that down makes it even more difficult to comprehend. I was first exposed to porn when I was just 11 years old, and since then it has been a slippery slope to where I am today. I had a good run with being porn-free in high-school, after I confessed to my girlfriend that I had a problem with it and that I wanted to get better. 122 days strong, and I fell right back in. Since then I’ve had no real success. My girlfriend at the time is now my fiancé, and she thinks I’m fine now. She thinks I conquered this a long time ago. I want that to be true. I think I need to commit, more than I ever have before. More than I had ever thought possible. I’m going to journal this journey. I know a million of these get posted a day, but having some semblance of accountability by saying this aloud feels helpful. I commend every one of you who has acknowledged how devastating porn can and will inevitably be. We’re fighting a good fight.
Same with Josh and you, i started at 11, by 14 i was probably doing it daily…… so sad how this is the truth of the world, and its only more accessible to children in this day. Honestly if its something concerning you, and you do believe this woman will be your wife, you may have success in being candid with her. Saying babe i slipped up, and its been eating me alive, i could really use your support or just acknowledgement. I think you can consider yourself not necessarily starting Day 0 again, but honestly keep track of the days more loosely. Do not see it as a major loss, but as a hiccup. And then “continue” with the same strength and confidence as Day 123, 124, 125.