My story (hope this motivates some of you)

First of all I want to quit because it affects my life so much more than I thought, I’ve been doing really bad in school for a few years now, I have very low self-esteem and confidence, I lack sportiness, stamina and strenght even tho I did sports my entire life and nowadays I train daily, sometimes multiple times a day, I look like a 15 year old boy at 19 years and can’t grow a beard, probably because I was pumping out minerals all the time and therefore lowering or keeping my testosterone at a low level, I always get nervous when I’m around girls and even tho I can hide it a little bit it makes talking to them not easy, I also always put myself lower than others, saying sorry for things that you don’t have to be sorry for, putting orhers first, basically being a “beta”, and just now I relaized that all of those things lead back to one thing: that 12-year old boy that got trapped into watching something he shouldn’t have, as my addiction got more intense I got caught by my parents and my father tried to talk to me about it but of course as a young teenage boy you don’t listen, addiction got even worse, I was watching it multiple times a day, beating my meat multiple times aswell to the point that it got swollen and bruised, there were days where I would use more than 7 hours of my day to watch or play or read porn, and as you grow older the addiction gets even more intense and you discover and build new fetishes, you are not even satisfied by the “normal” stuff anymore, my biggest fetish is/was very feminine femboys and trans-women and because I liked it so much I was starting to think that I was gay which really messed up my mind, not that it’s a bad thing but some of you will know what I mean, I never want to do it ever again, I will give it my everything to quit this stupid addiction and be a normal, happy person For everyone that needs some motivation: it’s worth it to quit, I know it, it’s been 3 days since I last did it and I already feel different, nearly had a relapse now but I convinced myself not to do it, keep fighting brothers