I’m not ok, and that’s ok

Hey all, I wish I could explain what’s going on in my head to others without this addiction. I’ve experience sexual and physical abuse from a few years ago and most of the time I’m ok. But days like today it takes over my emotions and life. I relapsed today, when I get like this I dive deep into porn. I am working with a therapist but I just want to let it out that I had this happen idk. Letting it out helps me, even if no one reads it. I wish I never went through this shit but here we are, I’m here to get better as we all are. I know I can do it but just need this community to lean on sometimes. My name is Erik, I’m a porn addict and dealt with sexual trauma only a few short years ago while o was going thru a hard time in college. I hope I can look back and admire where I’ve come in terms of my recovery and finding peace. Thank you for reading this far if u made it.🙂‍↔️