Day 4 - obsessive thoughts

My second post. I have been quite productive over the last few days but I keep dealing with insomnia. I think I have only slept ~10h total over the last 3 days. Every time I watched porn I’d be able to fall asleep easily. But now I keep having obsessive thoughts about taking a look at one of my “favorite” videos. It keeps spinning in my mind and I can’t seem to brush it off. It’s just a proof that it’s a real addiction, I refuse to believe that it’s normal. I’m trying my best to stay focused and not to peek, but it’s getting more difficult.