New member 4 1/2 days strong

I downloaded this app last month thinking it was free. I would always get the notifications of testimonies. Finally I get on the app to see the free trial so I signed up because I need as much help as I can get. I’m willing to pay for this app at this point..I’ve been clean for almost 5 days because I’ve been so busy filling my schedule and working on my personal self growth. I’ve been watching porn since I was 6 years old and masturbating since I was 10, I’m 29 now. I’m generally pretty disciplined in a lot of areas as far as my diet, fitness etc but I feel like I could be much better if I can conquer this. Masturbating has been a coping mechanism that I have used for many years because of child trauma & isolation where I’m searching for a certain feeling that I know that I will never get from this vice such as community and happiness. Above all I’m optimistic especially hearing your testimonies. Thank you all for the support and I’m glad to be here taking it one day at a time.