Done convincing myself it’s okay

I been dealing with a break up and I have been cutting myself slack and beating off and ignoring the app. I realized today I’m not giving g myself slack. I’m a slave to my urges and I need to take control back. How you do one thing is how you do every thing and if I can’t listen to myself in these low points when will I. I’m promising myself I don’t want to be a slave anymore.