HELP! I CAN’T TAKE IT

I need an accountability partner, so badly. The longest streak I have is 8 days, the longest and most proud streak of my life. I spend money on relationships that are not real. I fear that I’m living in a nightmare and just want to wake up. Save money, move on with my life, not relapse and be stuck in the same place over and over, becoming more and more broke. My family doesn’t know how bad it is and I can’t tell them. I’m stuck on my own and need an outside, objective accountability partner to help me when I lapse in judgment. Please help, this feels like a cry to God but I need help. Please.