Starting my journey
It’s crazy to think I’ve been addicted since Middle School, about 9 years ago. And I’m now just trying to break the cycle. It’ll definitely be tough considering how long I’ve been addicted but it’ll be good. Some weeks I’d do it once a day or even twice, other times I’d only do it once a week. I’m not sure why I was so inconsistent throughout the years but I’m gonna try to remove it completely. I’ve tried doing NNN but never really beat that either. Closest I got was 20 something days. But even then, the whole point I did it was to have an amazing experience either after I failed or beat the challenge. The prize was to do it again. Which is like why do the challenge at that point. Anyways, this’ll be a journey that’ll last a long time. Hopefully I’ll stay strong. For me, for my family, for my relationships, for God.
I started when I was 13, now I’m 33 and these past 14 days I swear have went by in a blink of an eye. I always have to remind myself of the guilt and shame I’d have if I gave into the temptation. It gets better after everyday tho! You got this 💪🏻