I’m lost

I have been at a all time low this month. I’ve been almost too worried with the rest of life to even consider porn or think about this fight in the background of everything else around me falling apart. I haven’t given in but just thinking about it worries me. I’m at a point in life where I feel lost and I’m in a funk where I don’t find joy in anything. I feel like I’ve lost my non-blood family around me and it’s been hard. Pray for God to use this hardship in my life and to be strong and not give into porn even in this challenge. I just feel lost