day 5 - nervously proud

the longest I was able to distance myself from porn was 9 days. this was roughly a month ago. now, I am more than half way to achieve this again. and to, hopefully, surpass it. not be able to say that I was able to not watch porn for more than 9 days makes me feel sad, frustrated and ashamed. it makes me think my words don‘t matter, since no action followed. I never told this to anyone before. not even close friends, family, ex-partners. that I was never able to hold back longer than 9‘days. I want to change. and I hope this is the start of something great. take care of you. happy sunday to y’all.