I will NEVER give into urges again

The urges are always so strong, especially after years of giving into them. I am working from home today and my first instinct is to grab my personal laptop and scroll my usual sites to feed my brain some easy dopamine instead of putting in hard work for my job. I refuse to live that way anymore, not a second longer for the rest of my WHOLE LIFE! I’ll keep checking in here and participating in the group chat too. I’m not tryna slip between day 3-5, or on day 7,10, 12,14,15, whatever. This is really life or death for me now. Not even a single urge will be considered. It’s instantly gonna be followed by a giant red X in my brain, with a visceral feeling of disgust imagining myself jacking off to pixels like a goblin in my room, while the hourglass of my life starts depleting faster and faster. Wow