Repeat Relapses
I'm falling back into the cycle, guys. The longest I've gone without looking at porn is 2 days & 20 hours. Exercising to distract myself has worked once, but I don't know if it's reliable. I've also tried conditioning myself to associate porn with pain by hitting my arms every time I think of something lewd, but that doesn't seem to work. I can't stay cooked, please give me tips.
I want you to read this, from Micah Turnbo, a man who lives seeking Jesus, who has been given the gift of seeing and touching Jesus, angels and spiritual beings. This is what happened when Jesus walked into the room when Micah was watching born and masturbating: One of the best things Jesus has ever said to me was after I had looked at p*rn. He said, “P*rn does not define you. And it does not chase me away. P*rn does not have to be who you are. I will always love you. My heart is for you.” This was twelve years ago. I will never forget that. Another time Jesus walked into the room when I was watching p*rn and during my act of m*sturb*tion Jesus closed the computer and had me stand up before him. I was completely naked and exposed. He dressed me I a robe of brilliant light and put crown on my head and ring on my finger. He said, “This is you.” What happened next I’ve never shared before because this was so personal to me. I wanted to keep to myself. But the Lord asked me to be vulnerable with you. Jesus tied a gold belt around my waist and said, “I saw you while I hung exposed on the cross. In my exposure to the world I saw you smiling at me. I saw you running free and leaping over ever mountain. Nothing held you down in darkness, but you climbed to the height of light where you belong.” Jesus held my hands and sighed to prepare for his next words which lived deep inside his soul, “Dear one, I would do it all over again for you. In every labored breath, I imagined us together.” No sin is to great. Your struggle is not your future.