I fell

I relapsed. It is my fault and only my fault. I have no one to blame but myself. I got to 11 days and felt strong but the urge got me. I realized that I still don’t have a solution. I don’t have a strong enough why. I’m going to search for it and find it. I’m gonna begin again from day one. I will beat this. I know that this is part of the journey and I know it will make me stronger. But it really does make me feel horrible again