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Thank you guys for all your support! I really appreciate all the advices !!

You are worth of love. You just need to love yourself enough so that love will find you. Build yourself up in those low moments. I do a gratitude list. I list everything that is good and great in my life. Maybe you could do that or use it in a way that focuses on whatever you feel most venerable about. Repeat the list multiple times until you feel better. God can also help with self esteem, if you want to choose that path there are many places to find that. I myself find that helpful but it is ultimately your choice. A psychiatrist may be helpful in some aspects but they will generally give ways you can boost yourself and that may be helpful for you. You would probably be best at a root to run from your addiction in other words. If you feel the urge change your setting or what you are doing. Get away from it in whatever way best fits you. Also you past happened you can’t change that now nor should you try. Change the now, change tomorrow. This process of quitting comes in waves just as your urges do it is not an overnight thing. Some days will be great, others will be like walking through hot coals. Take each a day as it is and only worry about making that streak another day longer. Little wins add up and that streak number can add up quickly if you take each day as it comes. Good luck. 🙏

I pray for you brother. I also had and sometimes still have big troubles with self esteem and what helps me the most are my actions. When i am consistent with my no fap streak, with my workouts, with my work ethic. I have that self respect that nobody can have an effect on. And the opposite when i sit at home a few days in a row watching what i shouldnt watch and do what i shouldnt do and avoid doing what i actually should, i feel like the worst human being, like i cant even look people in the eyes, so ashamed of myself. Good luck brother, God bless!

I don’t know if you need professional help or not but the effects of porn are almost always reversible. You took the first step, now you just gotta be consistent. I’ll pray for you and I’m sure many others will join me.