How to say sorry

My first post, so bear with me. How do I say sorry—or even begin to speak to someone again? Here’s a little context: It was late one night over a long school break. I had been playing Minecraft with my best friend. My mind was baked—mush—whatever you want to call it. I was rambling on about one of my love interests at the time. Honestly, I don’t even remember exactly what I said about her. I don’t think it was graphic or disrespectful—I felt like I was just being honest. I was talking about how she brushed up against me at a football game (not sexually—just our shoulders), and I was kind of fixated on that moment. Then I got kicked from the game. Afterward, almost like an intervention, he started telling me how the way I was talking about her was disgusting. He said that fantasizing or masturbating about her was terrible. And yeah—I get it. Maybe I crossed a line. But this is the same dude who talked about taking his crush’s hair and “running his cock through it like a comb.” The same dude who asked me to rate girls at school—like their “cherries” and asses. Now, in his defense, I used to talk about a girl on my swim team. I remember strategizing with him about how to get her phone number. I also said something about how she got a new suit and how her ass looked good in it. So yeah—I wasn’t innocent. I get that. During his confrontation, I told him he was right. I apologized and said I didn’t know he felt that way. He had never brought it up before—it was like it just exploded out of him. Fast forward to the present—or near-present. I apologized again over text, explaining that I was grateful he helped me realize how far I’d let myself go. I told him I was sorry it had to reach that point before he said something. Since then, I’ve unfollowed him on Instagram because every time I saw his profile picture, it just made me sad and depressed. I kept wishing I could go back and fix everything. But I’m scared to talk to him now. I just want my friend back. But I think it’s already too late.