My journey
I’ve started myself improvement journey around 2 years ago. My existence was really miserable before that. I had social anxiety and depression, at the end of that period I started to have suicidal thoughts, but something changed within me. Till this day I’m not really sure what was it, but I said to myself that I can not live like this anymore. I started learning how to code, working to pay my depths (I was doing a lot of drugs before) and going to the gym. For the last 2 years I had may ups and downs, but I did not give up. I promise this to myself that I won’t do that under any circumstances. Right now I feel better than ever, I got my first job in IT, going to the gym 6 times a week (did not skip a single workout for 6 months) and I sober for over a year right now and feeling much more confident in social interactions (before that I wasn’t speak able to speak to any strangers). Despite all of that I still struggle to quit porn, the most time that I’ve managed to do without it, is 7 days. Worst thing is that about 2 months ago I had my fist chance to have a sex and I couldn’t get an erection. I know it’s because porn and even this couldn’t stop me from doing it again and again. Right now I’m two days sober and full of hope as always. Newer going to give up! And this is what I advise to everyone, keep pushing no matter what!
Really appreciate that, it means a lot. I also wanted to show other people here that everything is possible. 2 years ago I didn’t have any hope that something would change with my life. I didn’t see any way out. I thought that my life will always look like this. But I’ve managed to change that, it took a lot of effort and failures, but right now I’m a person that I couldn’t even image back then.