This girl is my second chance

I am recovering from a painful break up with a woman I truly thought was the love of my life. There were many problems with our relationship just like any other but a constant issue that came up was my relationship with porn. While she dismissed porn addiction as just “not being real” my reasons for dependence didn’t matter. It still hurt her. And there’s something to that. It doesn’t really matter why we do the things we do. They hurt the people we love all the same. This new girl has come into my life about 2 years later after I had a very messy and overextended hoe phase. The old habits from my single days are dying hard and fighting their way back to the surface. This woman is like if I wrote my dream girl into ChatGPT and asked it to print her out. But I still struggle with my lust. Whether it’s porn, receiving nudes, or hooking up when opportunities arise, I have been really battling with these urges and while we are not exclusive yet, I know these battles won’t just end when we officially begin dating. At the end of the day there’s good news and bad news: Good news is my actions are completely within my control. Bad news is my actions are also completely within my control…