I seek refuge in porn

I used to fap almost every single day since December 2019, when I was only 13. Now I manage to control myself. However, from November of this year I started to have crush on a guy, who says to be straight even though I never saw him with a girl. It’s the first time I really fell in love with someone, I can’t stop thinking about him. Therefore trying not to fap is becoming increasingly difficult due to the fact that I fantasticate having sex with him and, knowing that it’s something that’s never gonna happen, I jerk off to distract my mind from him. I hope that stopping porn could help me get the courage to tell him my feelings