I feel like an asshole

I used porn to help with stress and anxiety and now when I don’t JO I don’t know how to deal with it I’ve been listing to bedros on Apple podcast looking forward not being a coward and dealing with new coping issue my fellow men I respect you for taking a commitment and change I’ve always said I would stop and wouldn’t last more than a month or two would always just slow down and take it easy and lessen the amount of JO ive always try not to take it out on other but it’s not like I can’t tell everyone oh yeah sorry im not JO im mad that pathetic im going to succeed this time and do better even if that means to do it alone