Officially gone insane
Crashingggg tf outtttt. Don’t care no more. Letting it out. Ima piss off whoever the fuck I want. Not sleeping tonight gonna pop an energy drink and just get fucked up. Goddamn I want someone to test me so I can swing and beat the shit out of someone. Try me bitch. Idc anymore. Held all this shit in. Happy Mother’s Day to all yall lucky motherfuckers with good mothers. Mines an alcoholic manipulative gaslighting verbally abusive cheating bitch and my father is a cuck. Should’ve thrown her ass in prison a long time ago. I’ll probably end up there before her. Damn I used to be a nice kid. This world doesn’t treat nice people good so who the fuck cares. God wants to show up in my life he’ll have to show his face. No more games waiting for those stupid fucking signs and “trusting the process”. He don’t give a shit about me. He wouldn’t have created us knowing who goes to hell and who doesn’t if he was all loving and all knowing. This life is meaningless with no purpose we’re just animals so do whatever the fuck you want. Go wild. Jerk off. Fuck bitches.
I get it bro. It’s easier said than done. Bro you have no idea how much I wish I can crash out…. I haven’t yet… I love God and I believe in him with all my heart but I’m on a very bad path right now mentally and I’m keeping it in from everyone in my life. Everyone. A year or two ago I would have given you a verse or something but man I really don’t know what you’re going through. But that’s the point, all out journeys look different. Some harder than others. You don’t get to choose the life you want yo live, you gotta make it. And if the life you got isn’t what you want then you rebuild it. And sometimes that’s from the ground up. I’m sorry about your parents dude that’s sucks but I guess because I haven’t given up on God I’m still hopeful for you. I’m hopeful for me even with a 0 streak. Sounds dumb. But I’m hopeful. It’s gonna take time bro, gardens don’t grow overnight. But eventually it’ll sustain you, it’s takes time. But that’s also how God works. That overnight stuff is for witches and genies lol. Don’t give up.