Addiction getting worst

This month I went the longest with out porn (17 days) for the year. I broke that last week and have been goin down a rabbit hole of porn. I watch a few different genres & it’s starting to get out of control (the genre types) i’m actually disgusted with myself now but I’m also still seeking it out… any help or advice? Ik that it’s bad for me but why does it feel so good? This shit sucks so bad that I wish I could start life over. I was introduced to porn as a kid, watching it with my friends and I’m still doing it over a decade later.