I feel like a terrible person
I keep falling into watching porn over and over again, and today it’s really bad. I fell once, told God I was sorry, then did it again, told God I was sorry and did it again, and I haven’t actually nutted, but I just feel so unfaithful for repeatedly going to lust after God’s children. God has been so good to me and I treat him like he’s of little importance. I’ve been trying to grow in my faith, but I’m just so weak. As soon as I see anything sexual, I’m tempted and lose all of my convictions to serve God and live for him. It’s like I say one thing and do the other. I have no self control, and I try to lean on God, but I still fail to. I get lazy and don’t want to pray or read the word or I get prideful and walk away from it thinking I’ll be fine without relying completely on God. I just feel useless and lost no matter what I do idk.
Honestly Sam is right let post nut hit, and you won’t fall for it again through out the day. Also nutting isn’t what resets you, you don’t fail when you nut, you fail when you fall into temptation and watch porn.