Failed

I was doing so good and was going on day 34, then after the last couple days I was starting to slip up more and more till now. I didn’t think the regret was going to hit me like this but it feels so deep it almost hurts. And now I’m left with the question of why did I let myself slip up and lead me to this moment. What hurts more is knowing that you could have held back just a little longer and you wish that you could go back in time but that isn’t the case here. I know I can get such a high streak but it’s the waiting that kills me, now looking back at the streak I just had, 34 days is a lot to recover again. I genuinely want this to have an end but by the 3rd week, my mind forgets the guilt and that’s my biggest enemy at the moment. I wish the guilt could stay in me to keep driving me and propelling me forward. We are back to day 1 and on a real note, it’s weighing me down.