back at day 1. things are looking up

one thing that I found yesterday after I lost my 10 day no porn streak is that my brain kept thinking to watch porn again because I was 'back at square one' and that it ' wouldn't hurtb'. if you've experienced or are currently experiencing this same thing, i want you to think about this. the version of you that first started your attempts at quitting this addiction, did they think that one more time wouldn't hurt? no, they wanted to be rid of porn for good. relapsing doesn't mean you've lost all your progress, it means you've been overwhelmed and went to the coping mechanism your brain knew best. this is what quitting is all about, rewiring your brain so that you don't go to porn when you want to feel good. If you've relapsed on your journey so far, whether it were once or multiple times, write down or in some way record how you felt after. don't hold back on how you felt at all, leave it all out there. if you relapse again, document it. that way, in the future, when you feel like you want to give in, go back wherever you documented your previous experiences and remember why you should never go back. Also remember this, relapsing doesn't mean you start from the beginning, you are going back to a checkpoint, with the goal of getting past where you were before and going further down the path of recovery. always strive to be better, because striving to be perfect doesn't always pan out the way people think it will. Someone on this app told me yesterday after I relapsed ' you only lose if you stop trying ' and I swear I will remember that till the day I am porn free and take that into the rest of my aspirations in life. Sorry it's a bit of a long one lol, love you guys, stay strong I believe in you all