Intimacy > Gratification

I have never loved my girlfriend more since I have gotten off porn. My girlfriend and I have agreed on no sex until I can overcome my porn addiction, but we have agreed to still do intimate things that don’t include penetration. Today was a bit more intense and at a certain point we calmed down before it could lead do anything that would break our agreement. I always wanted to finish. No matter how we would get going I would want to finish, even if she didn’t. I was able to control myself during our moment because now I want us to share this intimate feeling together. I am starting to appreciate sex again. As something sacred, something enjoyable but beautiful. To be shared between two people that love each other. I feel proud to be in control. This has been one of the many things I have benefited from during my recovery and I hope that other people may find this for themselves. That the real joy you could receive would be one you share with someone you love.