I need help
I need help. I am too addicted, it’s always “one more time” in my head, even as I write this I’m saying “once more after posting this, then I’m over” never works… I create false realities in my head where I convince myself it’s not a bad thing and doesn’t play a toll on me. But yet everyday multiple times a day. The source I tend to find myself in is social media, an pornstar or onlyfans model promoting her work, I get interested, go to her onlyfans, want more, open up pornhub, and I’m gone. It really feels like these girls have no souls taking advantage of me, aspects of social media as well, I’m only 18 and I’m so done with it. I downloaded this app at the start of the year and was only on it for about a week resetting the timer over and over before I gave up… I would even be so happy if I cut down the amount of times a week. if I’ve ever had any cry for help in my life this is it.
You don’t have to do it all at once. Look for progress, not perfection. Social media/thirst traps are designed to drive engagement and income - they don’t care about your goals. I deleted IG for that reason. Meta doesn’t care that I’m on this journey, they classify me as a “user” and they want more user engagement, however they can get it. So their goals are not aligned with mine, I had to let it go.