Relapsed & lied about it
I just made a post on here saying that I was tempted and the urges came strong tonight but that’s a lie, I didn’t “finish” so I told myself it was okay but I looked up thirst traps on social media and the commitment I made to my wife and to myself was to not look at anything so I definitely broke that. I told my wife about it when she got home but only after she reminded me how much my original lies hurt her. She deserves so much better than me and I’m sure my marriage is over at this point and she never wants to see me again. I want so badly to be free of this addiction and I thought I was making real progress (50 day streak) but when it came down to the love of my life or porn I chose porn. I had some of the best sex of my life with her yesterday and it was so incredible to feel that genuine connection and closeness without porn in the way. And all it took was a bad day and time alone for me to throw it all away. If you’re reading this as someone looking to find someone to spend the rest of your life with please know porn will ruin everything if you give it power over you. Stop today. Stop forever.
You always have time to change man. I’m currently going through the same thing and porn addiction has been controlling me for the last ten years and I want to be a better man for my girlfriend. I want to be porn free and a loving father someday and husband so I decided to take a stand. I believe in you remember darkness is the absence of light let your wife and all the good things in your life be the light in your darkest hour.