Im over this
this addiction. This shit has been eating me since I was a kid. Since I was shown what it was by a close family relative who was far older than I was and I was 5. This addiction. Has caused me to lose myself, my relationships, my life. I don’t want this anymore. I don’t want to feel these urges, I don’t want to give into this temptation anymore, I’m fed up. I’m fed up with being weak. I’m fed up with saying it’ll be my last time and then going back to it in a week. I’m fed up with feeling this shame I bring unto myself. I want to be done for good. But it’s all I’ve known. For 20 years now I have craved it, I have wanted it, I have seen it. Always lingering in the back of my head ever since I was just a child. This demon, this sin, Lust. She has had her grip on me for so long. I need help guys. I have lost such an amazing relationship due to this already. I can’t go forth without change. I can’t do it alone, no longer.
I feel you. I too was shown porn at a very young age and it affected me badly and I was hooked for years, but you musn't give up hope! It's never too late to recover. Message me if you need to talk to someone🙏