Friday, May 30th

It’s Friday, and I feel so grateful to god to have woken up sober from both porn and substance. I am tempted to relapse into using again, but after spending just these few days sober, I’ve been able to reflect more on my 18 years of life and put the things that I have either been through or put myself through into real perspective. I cannot lie. The mental and physical stress of quitting both at the same time is excruciating, but I feel I am strong enough to replace these life ruining habits with fruitful ones. Because I know this isn’t the life that I want for myself, and I feel I would let a lot of the people I love in my life down if I can’t straighten up.