Thoughts/Feelings

10 days in, overcame some hurdles over the week and a half here. Urges came and went, reading purity is power by Shiraz at kings will rise, and easy peasy guide to quitting pornography helped. Anyone who’s gotten to this mark- has any of you just felt kinda blah —ho-hum—like you’re just kinda existing? I know how to face urges now, but like does life ever get like any better-feeling? I just kinda fall back on feeling proud to myself I made a commitment, and recognize it’s a new saga, and in general I just tell myself I don’t do that anymore. That that’s not the kinda person I am. And that it gives me no pleasure anyway. For help to anyone reading also I’m told these are just basic human urges and we don’t have to cave in to them if we don’t choose to. But also I’m told histori-logically, sages of the past would go on extended periods of celibacy to enhance their creative powers, like mysteriously this has worked. It can be seen through a multidisciplinarian study of various religious cultures throughout the ages.