Do not count on god to help you
It's you versus yourself. You are the one to blame. You are the one accountable for your mistakes. You are the the one to lift yourself right back up from misery. No one else is there to help you. It's you alone in this dungeon. From the beginning of time, ever since his appearance on earth, men used his brain in order to overcome difficulties. If there's a god, if there's an infinite, the only thing it gave you was a mind, a problem solving engine. One of the difference between man and animal Is that he has the choice to destroy himself or to make himself. It only depends on what he looks forward to do with his mind, whether he wants to focus or not. A mind which chose to be unused is self destructive. Ever since we were primitive, the brain was the tool that made us able to strive and evolve. It needs constant challenges, constant obstacles due to the fact that these things, the triggers that leave to a better life if we choose to overcome them, of course. It needs to be active all the time. Therefore, good life is one that is in constant motion, in a constant attempt to make one's life better. A mind that is not active. A mind that that does not choose to is a mind that leads to death.
Good luck on your journey! Stay busy and keep pushing!