Relapse & Triggers

Relapsed yesterday but refused to fall down the self hate spiral. I reflected on why I decided to look at porn (felt stupid doing it but have to try something) and decided porn is just too easy to access and I get triggered too easily. So, I deleted all social medias from my phone, moved my personal laptop in another room with a dead battery and the charger somewhere else, installed website blockers on my work computer, cleared and donated my tablet yesterday. Not saying it’s full proof, but figured if I make it as hard as possible to access porn and take away triggers, it can only help. Here’s to trying.