Rejection

I’ve got some really strong feeling of fear and self pity coming up because of possible impending rejection from a girl. It’s a relationship I have been in for the past few months, I was excited and interested but never really took it that seriously, now the texts and meeting up has dropped off a cliff and it just feels like the long goodbye! The emotions and feelings are quite powerful and I feel like I want to escape through relapse to get away from these feelings 😔 this feels really overwhelming because I now find that I have strong feelings for her as I steer clear of porn, it just feels like catch 22!