Addicted since 8

I don’t know exactly when I became addicted to porn. Although, I know I was addicted by 8 years old. I still struggle with it currently 18 days clean and haven’t purposely watched porn. I still masturbate and have sexual intercourse with my S.O because I am genuinely attracted to her (not by lust). Today, I almost relapsed because I found some old porn on my computer, but instead of scrolling through it all I felt disgust and under the weather at the view of other women. I have now been trying to only love my lovers which has been working numbers for me. Find someone you genuinely appreciate and porn will be no more. I will be porn free soon and never think or use it again. God Bless you all, we aren’t perfect don’t beat yourself up if you do relapse. Pray for forgiveness and rejoice in your mistakes to become better. Amen